Venting feelings

Ok I just need a space to write. I'm angry im fuming. My parents are horrible. I'm always invalidated. Dad is the main primary shit starter if it's not mom taking her miserable attitude out on me. When I know I'm in the right she'll stay silent or defend dad or the other person. It makes me so mad. Basically dad's a drug addict who abuses his meds with other drugs parties on them and just because I get one the same he thinks I'm obligated to give him my own meds because HE ABUSED AND PARTIED ON ALL OF HIS. ITS UTTER BULLSHIT. AND ACTS LIKE I'M IN THE WRONG FOR REFUSING. (Side note I took family toxicity test and was scored in the severe category I was like no shit I already knew that. )

So. Right so basically a week or 2 ago he belted out that I'm a "sorry ass" multiple times while drunk.

I told him today that I didn't appreciate it he just goesdrop it gets up and walked away. Yet himself is angry for the exact same thing just a different situation with my aunt he was like SHE DIDN'T HAVE TO SAY THAT which offended him. yeah neither did you hypocrite. Oh right but I call him out on it and he refuses to apologize yet he doesn't like being talked to like shit himself. Go figure smh. Hypocrite.

Then makes me the villain for refusing to give him my medication. I feel like I want the world to burn right now because I always get bad in return for being good to others lately. My parents are no doubt mentally ill. I feel like burning the fucking house down is how angry I am. This isn't a one time overnight thing. It's went and been going on for A LONG TIME. Same old shit. I'm in a position to be able to leave either. And with Abusive behavior. Last year him n mom made me the enemy and cornered me in the hallway fighting verbally heated double teaming me. If you can't trust or count on your family who can you trust. Is suicide an option. I do think of it sometimes. If this receives replies which im not looking for please keep from being rude. I'm just venting my feelings nothing more. Im so emotionally exhausted right now. Damned if I do or don't it feels :(

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Crazyguy Miscellaneous April 26, 2024 at 6:11 pm 0 0