I m pathetic and I hate everything

I just want to post somewhere I won't be judged or noticed just to let my feelings out, It's like screaming into a black void. I fuckin hate everything. I take things to heart way too fuckin much and im a sensitive pos no matter how much I don't want to believe that, especially when it comes from ppl i dont know. I made a post on reddit asking for genuine advice(fuck me for thinking I could get some) I have a crush on an incel and need to stop for the betterment of my health, maybe i was to open or to fake or sounded stupid or maybe i gave too much information or am some retard for even posting on there for advice. EVERY SINGLE TIME I POST ON THERE I GET JUDGED OR IGNORED. I'm not some sexist or racist or conservative pos, I have problems with my mental health and attaching myself to ppl, that I need help with I DONT FUCKIN CONTROL IT. If i did I wouldn't FUCKING BE SUCH A STUPID DEPRIVED LOSER. I just fucking hate everything some user commented fucken "..." under my post when I ask for help and all my feelings that maybe I could get advice or be validated and know Im not a stupid fuckin idiot loser retard for feeln this way, all if it goes down the drain with THREE FUCKEN DOTS ON A SCREEN FROM SOMEONE I DONT EVEN KNOW. THEY DIDNT EVEN SAY ANYTHING. ITS WORSE BECAUSE THEY GOT UPVOTED AND MY POST GOT DOWNVOTED. I feel like suck a fuckin deprived loser, like im fuckin lying to myself. I just want validation honestly. I just need someone to truthfully tell me what I feel is okay. I DONT NEED A FUCKIN "..." FROM ANYONE. IM NOT FUCKEN OKAY, IM FUCKEN WEAK AND PATHETIC AND IM A FUCKIN BABY THAT CANT TAKE IT. IF YOUR EVEN READING THIS FAR YOU MUST BEING THINKING "ATLEAST SHES SELF-AWARE" YEAH I FUCKIN AM. I DONT KNOW HOW TO CHANGE MYSELF AND CONTROL MY FEELINGS I DONT KNOW HOW TO STOP FEELING LIKE A FUCKEN FREAK FOR EVERYTHING I DO I DONT FUCKIN KNOW WHATS WRONG WITH FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKKKKK.,,, IM WAY TO FUCKING SENSITIVE. The only thing that has been giving me joy and has helped me keep going is the internet and the nice ppl ive met on there, i cant just leave. I feel like such a fuckin loser. I wish i wasnt such a fucken loser i wish i wasnt born this way i wish i wasnt a freak i wish i wasnt so insecure i wish someone fucken made me feel okay BECAUSE I'M NOT.

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Fluffy Miscellaneous April 23, 2022 at 8:46 pm 0 3