Why must be there an entire ocean between us

After months of talking and hanging out with a person whom i met on the internet and is very dear to me, i decided to confess my love to her in hopes of getting rid of those feelings. I hoped to hear "i am sorry, it wont work and a long distance relationship wont do" and then this would tell my brain to stop thinking of her.

As it happens its more painful than that. It turns out she had a crush on me too and admitted that at the same time. And still, after a long talk, we decided it wouldnt work out as a distant relationship.
She is from the US and i am from Europe.

Its so incredibly painful. Why is one person i fall for on a different god damn continent. Why are we, who had both the immense luck to meet each other, fall in love with each other and then to cry together, living thousands of kilometers away. Why does it have to me so cruel. Its an indescribable feeling of joy that we met and got to know each other, and at the same time just endless pain that we just cant be together.

we decided to keep friends. I am happy to keep in contact with her, and i am sure the grief will fade.

But god damn it, it hurts a lot.

i need to scream. One time i fall in love and its for a person impossible to love properly.

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RandomNameGenerator Crushes June 26, 2023 at 5:26 am 2 8