Stressed out

My finals are near. But it is stressing me out. My teacher gave us our carry marks and all of my carry marks are really low. I know i need to study to at least pass all my subjects. But now, I'm fed up studying. I studied and understands nothing. It''s tiring me out. now i know i need to study but im just so lazy to study now. i have zero determination to study as of now. like i am sitting at my studying corner but i didnt study at all. i did other things because i feel like im sick of studying. ngl this online school with the pandemic on going is taking a toll on me. i feel empty now. i feel less happy every single day. i feel like a robot that has no feeling. i tried to laugh or more like fake laughing to just feel more happy but its all go down to drain. i feel so hopeless with my studies. i feel like i want to quit. this is to hard for me. i cant see my future anymore. it feels empty and dark. i want to study but im getting sick of it. i feel so dumb and envy all my friends that doesnt need to study but still get perfect score or higher marks. im not sure if i can graduate on time before this my target for my gpa is 3.5 and above but now i just want to pass all subjects without repeating any subject for the next semester. when will this end. this has taken a toll to my body and emotion and i just want everything to stop now. im tired of life tired of my stressfull life.

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mel School January 26, 2021 at 4:27 am 0 0