i dont want to live anymore

i feel like im not good enough for anyone not even my bf he dosnt even try to show love to me he would go days without texting me even when online he just doesn't seem like he likes me anymore no matter how much i try and when i txt him im scared that im so annoying and sumthing and i wish i was pretty, why do i have to have this thigh gap in my legs i hate it i use to sh on them thinging it would help that im doing that thats why i never wear leggings, shorts or jeans bcuz i hate my legs and my face im so ugly without my makeup it makes me cry i feel so pretty with my make up and without it i feel like nothing im so tired of trying anymore i just want to give up and die tbh i have no purpose i cant fit in im not funny nor social i cant talk to people with out overthinking along with my mum probs dosnt even love me we never have a nice convo all she does is shout stuff at me she never even says hi to my jsut yells and my dad isnt even here to see me hes with his ex and her kid, why isnt he looking after his kids why hers. WHY HER KIDS HES OUR DAD, but at the same time hes the same i dont think he loves me he mostly yells and i dont like it one time i was spitting blood out my mouth and all he was doing was yelling and stuff why cant i be normal why cant anyone like me y do i try so hard to be normal im scared of rejection and i hate it im such a cry baby i will never like myself i just want people to. i dunno anymore i hate life why was a born i shouldnt even be here im so stressed over nothing and all i do is freak out i hate myself so much i would die to be someone else not even kidding i want to fit in just for once. thank you for reading this

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kayla Miscellaneous August 11, 2022 at 6:25 pm 1 0