im trying

school. im stressed as fuck, why cant i just be left alone??? im trying so fucking hard yet i always find a way to fuck up someone's mood and make them mad at me. its always piles of homework being poured onto me, then i have family
nothing against my family. but how do you expect me to get assignments done while i have to go places with them? its not like i have superpowers or anything
im honestly trying so hard. im never satisfied with myself tbh. thats why i always put others before me. so therefore seeing them happy makes me slightly more proud of myself
lately i haven't been as happy. compared to what i used to be, i talk less, i joke around less, i keep more to myself more than anything, and i try not to cry in front of people
i honestly prefer my online friends
i have a group chat and i view its members like a family
and to be real with you
at any point i would chose the group chat family over my real one
its not that i don't love my real family
i just feel a lot more comfortable with my fake one
there people actually understand me

im trying so fucking hard and nothing seems to be helping. and i hate it so much

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sweg_goose Miscellaneous February 09, 2022 at 9:19 am 2 0