My friends are toxic

My friends C, K, and O, They are so mean and abusive Olivia always hits my scars when she knows ive got them. They always point out my insecurities, evert since ive friended them ive developed this thing im not sure how to exsplain it but its like i have more then one personality depending on who im talking to. They just make me hate myself even more then usual and im not sure what to do about it. I feel like ive got nobody to talk to and im just alone in ever situation, nobody notices when im upset or if im sad or if im not at school a few days nobody cares at all, nobody. They think sorry is going to make a difference i just hate them so much, nobody knows how i feel thats why im here tonight. Back to what i was saying i g et so angry sometimes i lash out at everyone but nobody thinks to ask if im okay or if ive got anything wrong with me or just anything all they care about is why i lashed out at them all about them its always them them them never about me and i hate saying that it makes me feel so selfish but its the truth im only 14, is this normal?. or do i need help? i just dont know anymore. My mother left me when i was just a baby with my father, i think thats where some of my problems come from? im not sure. i truly love my father more then anyone is this world even thought sometimes he dose lash out at me but i understand he gose throught so much to make me happy. i love you dad.

i just wonder if my mother ever you know, thinks about me? dose she care about how i feel? dose she care what im going threw? Im guessing not? she makes me so angry i hate her, i hate you mother. i just feel so depressed, everyday i wake up and just think " not this again " all the bitchs at school dont make anything better i just hate everyone everyone i hate yous all everyone calling me anorexic just fuck of all you whores I HATE YOUS ALL JUST GO GO GO YOU AHEJIWKSDK

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unknown Friends May 31, 2022 at 8:35 pm 0 0