Invitation to Man sPityParty

I'm straight, so, I don't even think about all other types of Relations with any other than my opposite attractives.
My Relationship views are personally Subjected and quite severely seered into my conscious awareness. (like a brand new big beefy stack of ribs ready for the grill, man claims (his domain) since he first cooked steaks on it ).

My Theories are of my own contemplates of those types through personal experiences mixed as I ascertain being as valid as any reasons through actual cause and effect may have rendered me as I am.
(and no, I do not speak like this in all reality of situations, I just get overwhelmingly aggravated from deprivation in the lack of efforts with emotional support to the point of wearing me down to chore like attempts at pursuing for better lack of any receiving delightful engagements with the MAN, and to seek out self atonement and solace in lengthy therapeutic sessions of keeping to myself in writing about it. As inso much as going forward with this to clarify, I will use the terms "a man" ,"the man",and or "my man", as implied as to any significant other I may,may already have, had, or would most likely, or never encounter here on out.

The Man's overall perceptions of "relationships" must be akin to:
A: Long term (Man in all his masculine persona)is to being in a caged prison and must guard to stave off ultimate danger of capture, before devastating attempts of escape become futile with skin, teeth and bones intact.
B: as Short term (friend with a vagina)is to the wide open prairie to roam freely with anything and everything beyond what was within close proximity to (his d*ck),(to be slung around in any manner ), site, thumb,foot, tail, 10 minutes to less than 24 hours ago.
without, any noticed reference conceivable and/ or even to adhere to and without the thought of exclusivity of any future pleasant foreverness of any foreseeable joy with one woman.
I can imagine it quite often, perhaps that is all on me, and my unrelenting wishful thinking for emotional support that may show up at any time from the man.
However I don't hate man, I pity my own foolishness. Introversion having a quiet temperament , love, and naturally seeking comfort from soothing aesthetic empathetic persons like myself yet collide time and time again with the most vile, disturbing, meanest, cruelest, viciously deranged psychopathic split bipolar personalities that do NOTHING but succeed in pushing me aside,stepping around and stomping over top of me to seek out more more more of whatever the hell it must be from wherever somewhere else is.....If this is still the repeated behaviors in dating preludes approaching me for my interests in love, joy,and real romanticism...today, then slam fuck shut the entrance of that upfront brute force forefront honesty in existence and all that he brings in with it and go right back out there in the weeds and leave me the fuck alone, you insatiable pathetic neanderthal bastards.

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Marilyn Relationships February 05, 2024 at 3:41 pm 0 0