chill back and just chill idk

First of all lets start off with the fact that no one fully understands how awful my father is. He is genuinely most hypocritical person I have ever met in my entire life but this man wants to change his whole personality into some type of fucking comedian in front of everyone else in public but when we just chillin at home, the man is fucking asshole and I can't fucking live with this fyckign man any fucjing more. everyone be like "why you so mean to your dad" you bitches don't be understanding how it really like.

I'm scared to grow up. Ive always had anxiety about leaving home or going on vacation far from home or like being away from my mom but like that's going to become a reality very soon becayse I'm only 16 years old but the time is flying by quicker than I imagined.

I am huge on authentic validation. I do not believe I am capable of being the best and I want nothing more than to be the best. but I fucking hate the work. working out is so mid and going to practice is even more mid. and my coach is thinking that I can be someone really big like boi who is he talking about becayse its not me. there are some moments where I'm thinking "damn I'm not too shabby" but recently I been like "what the fyjuck this bitch doing fr". anyways I been hitting the gym and gettin swole and I lift because never skip leg day. I'm seeing small progress but this is only the beginning of my journey. #liftingqueens

I believe that I have become more social in the past year or so. between going back to in person school and sports and summer and parties. I think I've become more social and more open to meeting new humans. I've never been the biggest booty bitch in the room but low-key the personality is still shit. I'm kidding kinda depends who I'm with ya feel. I got drunk for the first time at a party in August, that shit was fire. I just got high for the first time a couple weeks ago, that shit wasn't as fire as being drunk but it did the job. anyways, I love my friends right now, even though sometimes they can low-key be getting on ny fucjing nerves. its fine. jk lol

bro I still haven't had my first kiss like wtf. my friends out here sucking dicks and I'm sitting there looking up in the sky wondering "when will it be my turn". anyways, I honestly just want to get it over with and move the fuck on but I don't want to kiss anyone from my school because they are all OPPS and I know I'm not gonna be the best since I'm a noob. I just want it to be with someone from vacation since I know I will never see them again and they can't tell any of their fucking friends how badussy I was. In conclusion, I am bystander.

ok thanks lol bye

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icedtea101 Relationships February 25, 2022 at 12:26 am 1 0