Don't. Whenever I think of killing myself but don't go through with it and see the next day I realize what I wouldn't of experienced. I've grown much closer to nature. To appreciate plants and greenery more than my life. Sometimes you wish you really did go through with it especially if tomorrows a bad day. That's happened to me too. My mom is emotionally neglectful and my dad has cancer. I know how it feels to have shit talked about you, by everyone in my household. I was some sort of black sheep then. I've grown, not much has changed. Things like art really help too. When I paint something I like I think about how I would've been unable to have painted this had I killed myself. there is always something to look forward to. You've just got to find it and that can be tough. But when you do life feels so much better. Keep going, you're doing great! (:

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Fluffy 4 years ago