aaaaa

dude
i love everything about him
for context we're both in high school
he's so incredibly smart and nerdy and i find that absolutely adorable
he gets so passionate in his rants about things he cares about, like the video games he plays
i'm just so happy i can listen to him talk about these things because it's genuinely so amusing
like
he seems so apathetic, but when you get to know him, he has a heart of gold
he genuinely respects me a ton, and he validates how i feel
for me, it's uncommon to genuinely feel validated like that
it's nice being listened to
i've told him i like him, and it's mutual, but i don't know if we could call it official yet
we were on a 4-hour call yesterday playing a game, and he was so understanding of me having to get up and go do things or take breaks because yesterday was hectic
i often feel like i'm not doing enough to express how much i care, but he's not the affectionate type so idk
i'm thinking of asking him to prom because, knowing him, he doesn't want to be rejected or anything if he asks and just wants to please me
which like
bad, i'm gonna talk to him about it at some point
but i understand the struggle
it's not sustainable, i feel a lot of pressure to make choices and he's not contributing
but damn
he's super sweet to me
he's driven me home multiple times
he's let me use his gloves before, next on my hitlist is his hoodie
he's quick to defend me if someone is disrespect me and that gets me
because we're both introverts, he understands the struggle of feeling awkward, and we're both comfortable just hanging out together if none of our friends are around and we're in a crowded room
the long stares at each other are always silly and always cheer me up
he's always so goofy around me, and he'll sneak up behind me and stand there, scaring the living daylights out of me when i'm literally just sitting there, minding my business
it makes us laugh so much
i've also gotten good at detecting when he's there because people give little cues when he's there, purely by accident
they normally try to prevent me from noticing
omg he genuinely smells amazing though, idk if he uses anything but it's such a nice smell
i wanna work up the courage to hold his hand but i would feel awkward to, especially because we're usually around other people and i know full well we'd be teased
but there's just so much about him and the companionship that i love
i've yet to meet his parents in person but i think they really like me
when we were calling yesterday, his mom came up to his mic and said
"tell [insert his name] to listen to his mom more often :)"
without hesitation, i just said "hey, [insert his name], you should uh... you should listen to your mom :)"
"AWW I KNEW THERE WAS A REASON I LIKED YOU :D"
i have no idea if she knows about the condition between us, but she's so sweet omg
i just hope that we can stay close because he's such a kind soul :)

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anonymous <3 Crushes February 05, 2023 at 11:44 am 0 4