ranting session

idk why but i feel like i am cursed. for the past fucking five years, i have experienced literally only pain and lots of disfortune. all in one year, i have had to deal with a destroyed island after a hurricane passed over us and we still have places that are still destroyed. On the same year when my island was destroyed, i moved houses AND schools, my only sibling went away for college, my parents divorced, my mom forced me to give away my cat (literally the first and only pet i had ever had), and to top it all off, i happened to go to a school to be known as a shitty and toxic environment full of mean girls :). Later on next year, i left that hellish place after one semester being a student there and i went back to my old school, where i was happy to be with my friends again only to be backstabbed by them two years later after they created a rumor about me and hurt me sm. I also fell in love with a girl and she hurt me badly too and called me a "loser" in front of her friend. i felt so fucking pathetic that i left that school without letting anyone know and i just left. i went to another school and guess what? apparently rumors dont just stay at not just one school, it followed me everywhere i went and ppl talked shit about me and laughed at my face. i spent a year in that school and i have met a friend that really did care about me, but i didnt. i felt so angry with all the things that have been going on in my life and during that time, i had been dealing with gender dysphoria and abnormal sexual urges. i stayed away from my only friend who actually gave a fuck about me and i pushed her away and completely ignored her and im angry at myself that i did. i really regret it. And now, my mom is dating this toxic two faced liar of a guy who is literally so dumb to even function (He screamed at her one time to shut the fuck up publicly while they were eating in a fancy ass restaurant). Oh and i told my mom about me having gender identity issues and she literally said: "i don't support whatever that is because it's not God's rules, but i love you". (Yes, she's christian as you can see). My life is literally a joke lol. And now i realize that things really dont get better. At least for me. I am fucking cursed and I am angry all the time.

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-Lu N Miscellaneous February 25, 2022 at 11:39 pm 0 0