bullied for stupid fucking reasons

i am literally so fucking pissed off. these kids at my school are making up these stupid ass rumors abt me and it literally makes me so uncomfy. so i was in the same stall as my best friend, right? we were js skipping, we weren't doing anything sexual or wtv. so these little crooked, big headed, bald, ugly, flip phone, nasty ass fuckers decide to look into the girls' bathroom and see me and my friend coming out of the same stall. and these stupid ass kids think it's funny to start shipping me with my best friend. i am straighter than a line you pussies. they start calling me gay and make up rumors that i was fucking my best friend. so sick of this bs. it makes me so uncomfy. i can't even walk through the halls with my best friend without going "what her pussy taste like?" and stuff. literally so exhausted. and it violates me. i feel verbally abused. these kids are even comparing me to this one character who has big thighs and i have big thighs right?? they start saying that i have huge thighs. "elephant thighs," they call me. i am so pissed off. this makes me literally want to switch schools all due to this. i know these things sound so little and insignificant but i have always been a crybaby and too sensitive. it really hurts my feelings and i feel like they're doing these things to make me feel sexually violated. it pisses me the hell off. and also, what were they doing looking into the girls bathroom? these kids are obsessed. i'm too scared to tell my mom because i feel like she's going to make a huge deal out of it, telling their moms and reporting them to the council. i'm scared of what they'll do. i literally made it so clear that i do not like being called "les" and "elephant thighs." they just won't stop. i really want to tell the council. i'm just so afraid of what they'll do. it's such a small school that i go to. they make fun of me for everything. i like reading and am very advanced for my age, they call me a nerd. at some point, i began to get detentions just so they could stop calling me this. i am still young and i really don't want to be told these kinds of things. i want to leave so badly though i know i am going to miss my best friend too much, as her parents do not let her contact anyone outside of school. i'm just tired, you know? i just wanna tell the council so badly, but i am not sure how that'll turn out. i told them how i felt and they claimed "it was just a joke." it makes me so fucking mad. also, for some reason, one of the guys that's calling me les is the guy i like. it hurts cuz it's just so annoying. i want to beat him up but at the same time i wanna kiss that idiot. he's so stupid and i know he wants nothing to do with me but i just can't help it. i know that i'm beautiful, my thighs aren't even that big, they're just mad they can't pull a girl with an hourglass. i'm not a nerd, i'm just smart. i know for a fact i'm not lesbian but i hate being called that. especially with my best friend. it just feels so wrong. i want to livemy best life with my friend. i don't know what to do. i'm def going to tell my mom but what if she tells the council? i'll try to tell her not to.

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amber School February 15, 2022 at 1:20 am 1 0