mhm

does anyone else ever find themselves lost in there own thoughts? honestly i feel so useless, ive never really been someone special , im just a girl with no talent. I look around seeing all these beautiful humans with a purpose but for me , i just cant find it .multiple days you would see me sitting with a numb face getting irritated with every unwanted moment, taking it out on myself, i over think it , "am i ugly, do i look okay, im getting fatter, ive lost weight" etc. i feel like my life is meaningless, nobody truely needs me . i just feel so alone .
at times , i feel so unmotivated with the thoughts dragging my mind down like a rip. days i overthink making me not want to go to school. i feel useless. on the daily i feel like im just a person who's just there, a second choice, always a fucking second choice. i get taken advantage of because im always that friend with open arms and that person to vent too, but has anyone ever been there for me ? no. Its hurt so much to see your friends get along with one another slowly pushing you out of the picture ,i do understand that some bit of it is my fault for not speaking up, but feelings rush back to me , not making want to speak thinking it would make it worse. i just sit and observe , slowing drifting into the unthinkable.

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that girl School June 22, 2021 at 2:46 am 2 0