Sorry

I'm so tired. Physically and mentally. I can't take it anymore, im so fucking tired. I'm the psy friend, and i cant take it anymore. My best friend dont ask to vent before doing it, they just go for it and dont ask how im doing back. They're not the only one. Everyone. They all do that. I'm so tired.
And i can't complain, i'm a horrible person. I'm aggressive and selfish, my friends are upset of me everytime. I got called ulgy, skinny and embittered every days. My friends are telling me how a horrible person I am, and if they don't, I do it myself. I'm so tired. My parents don't even care about me, they just care of my grades. I'm so fucking tired. Me and my partner are both mentally ill. I can't take the fact that I'm giving myself for them, and I just don't get anything in return, I mean, I can't ask them because they aren't doing great recently but so am I. I cutting myself again. It's been since September that i've started it again, after ~4 months of being clean. I'm a disappointement. My partner don't know it. I wish I could tell them everything, I want to vent to someone, but no-one listen to me, this is why I'm here, this is why I'm venting here, because no-one will probably read it, and no-one will know who I am. I'm just so fucking tired and I don't want to do it again, I don't want to fight for myself and I don't want to do everything again. I just want to go, and be free. I'm tired of this...

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anonymous Miscellaneous November 29, 2022 at 2:05 pm 3 0