I Think I Love Myself

I've always loved that I love myself, I saw it as a gift. But I;m starting to hate me, how I look, how my actions always contradict what I tell myself and others, how I feel towards other people around me. I keep trying to trick myself into thinking I'm a better person than I am and I hate myself for it. I've never asked for pity, I've never shown any more emotion than needed when talking to people, I've never harbored hate without a good reason. But I have no friends, don't even know what to do with my arms when I walk, I'm awkward and weird and never talk to anyone, I'd never be caught dead willingly going to a social event. I don't see these things as problems, other people probably don't even care, but it's things that I hate about myself. I always try and love people, becxause that;'s what the bible tells me to do but I never seem to get the fucking gist why do I have to hate everyone i meet why can't I just like someone withuout having a fuCKING MICROSCOPE under their imperfection why amd I such a hypocrite i hate so much about me fuck

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Ouch Miscellaneous September 26, 2022 at 12:18 pm 0 1